..Just not on the internet as much as is the norm these days.
Thank you for continuing to read my blog in this age of twitter, tumblr, instagram, facebook... etc.
I am still here with just this page and my modelmayhem page. If you like me, or hate me but like my work, or think I look weird, or think I write weird stuff, please tell your friends.
Someone a few weeks ago read my blog and told me that since I had not updated since I wrote about Matthew Grogan, that I was "letting him win." I noted that and planned to update much sooner than I am doing now. It's so much easier to find importance and a good story in negative things than in positive things for some people. I am one of those people.
But let's rewind a little to a lovely shoot I did not post about in a timely manner. It was with Tim and was supposed to be a TFP shoot, but he ended up hiring me for additional time after we'd finished shooting what we'd planned for TFP. He was an utter joy to work with and I am so thankful. The day started with a storm and BART train failure and me being hella late and him not being able to find a spot to park by the station I had to exit at and ended with a sense of fulfillment and a new connection. [We are going to work together again in a few weekends.]
Another thing that came out of this shoot was a complete surprise to me.
Tim was renting studio space in a warehouse in which regular group shoots called "Glamour Bash"es happen. I had gone to one of them... gosh, probably almost three years ago. It had been okay, but weirdo art alternative model that I am, with a non-traditionally beautiful body and strange ink blots and doodles to adorn it, I felt pretty out of place there. I don't usually do glamour, you know. Or if I do it is definitely weirdly slanted. So, I had an alright time at the bash and I liked everyone, but I felt like it wasn't for me. Alan, who runs them, never really contacted me again afterwards and I felt pretty insecure.
Then, when I was walking through the glamour bash, following Tim to the studio we were to shoot in, Alan yelled "Wynd! Why have you been ignoring me for so long?" [He didn't really mean it. He's a goofball.] It took me by surprise. I look way different than I did the last time we saw each other, so I wasn't expecting him to recognize me, and also I didn't know he'd wanted me to contact him! [Which, actually, is how it works. Models contact him to get slots in the shoots.] Some of the photographers who attend the events regularly recognized me, too. The fact that I was that memorable and that Alan wanted me to come back was a huge self-esteem boost for me.
I went to my second glamour bash last weekend, now in a different studio, and I hope to go again soon. More on that later.
Here are some images from my shoot that day with Tim!